korean tofu

trapped in a bittergourd; i was bitter. but somehow, i am now drowned in a pot of honeyy! (=
hahar. i'm glad.

life is back to normal.
even though it seems a little weird that i haven't been talking to jackfruit for a few days now.. hrm!
i guess it was a 'habit' in progress that i would chat my blahs away every so often with jack, but oh wells, can't depend on people that much, can we? (=
i'm so glad my emo days are finally fading.
on top of that unbearable weather los angeles has, the past few days had been.. HORRIBLE.
school.school.school. and of course, that one member of the body that made me.. (x_x) die.
hahar. that one member that exposed my shortage in love, and genuine care. that one member that literally made me TURN TO THE LORD, soooo much. hahar. that one member that made me 'murder', you know.. that one member that made me realize how hard it is to live on God's word, turning the other cheek..
sigh sigh!
life was PAINFUL! and 偏偏就没人可以诉苦to!! (>.<") Oh, so bitter~

anws. let me just get to my point.
i had dinner with blueberry today (:
hahar. i was way too lonely recently mans. i just need company. i need home. i need comfort.
so of course, i planned my days such that i can spend time with sprinkles, sisters, .. etc, and i realized, it has been a while since i hang out with blueberry; so therefore, today. haha. (=
was just a random question i asked thru text msg "eh. yao bu yao eat dinner tmr?"
yea. so we ate korean today (=
tofu tofu. kimchi. beef. dumplings. spice spice spiiiccccceee.

i'm so glad i have him as my good friend, really.
what would i do w/o all my friends?
after our dinner, we went groceries, just like we used to in the past. hahar.
simple things friends do, good memories to relive.
i'm glad our conversations still floww.
you know, the secret of all these is that.. i prayed.
like really.

before i text him, i prayed.
after i text him, i prayed.
before i meet him, i prayed.
when i see him, i prayed.
after everything, i still say my little prayers to God (:

haha. it was just a line or two where i say " lord, i give yongjae to you. use me to speak to him. give me the opportunity to dispense life into him."

today he held my morning revival book as he was navigating in my car. i hoped he had a peek. hahar. oh wells.
i really want him to know the Lord, really!!!!
i think he will be a much 'whole' person (=
seriously. he'll be.. so filled! so full of life! OH LORD! REMEMBER YONGJAE!

p/s: thank you, all you who beared with me(and misery)
(= love you guyyysss.